Week 35

Major Developments: The kidney's are fully developed & the liver can process some waste products. Basic physical development is mostly complete, baby just has to work on fattening up. My uterus is now reaching to my ribs

Size of baby: Weight of honeydew mellon and over 18 inches long.

Week 35 gave the Silva's a long weekend due to memorial day. It was nice to have an extra day off from work.

We had planned on taking Eric's dad to the Grand Canyon on Saturday. For some reason, Friday I was absolutely exhausted so I fell asleep at about 9 pm. wow.... what a loser. he he. Saturday we woke up bright and early, picked up Tulilo, and went to breakfast before heading up to the canyon. I made up a lot sleep on the way up and the way back. For some strange reason, we had a cold front come into town. That meant that Phoenix was about mid 80's and the Grand Canyon was about 60. Eric and Tulio were freezing. I was in a tank top and comfortable for a bit. I eventually put on a light jacket but was not cold at all. I was the only idiot in a tank top. These baby sure is keeping me warm. I'm really happy that it wasn't hot. I wouldn't have made it through the trip if it was above 90. We walked around, saw the canyon, and then headed back home. It was a long day, but baby got to visit one of the 7 wonders of the world. Here he is:

 

Sunday I had dedicated to sewing diaper covers. I ended up going to lunch with Megan and spending quite a while there. We kept talking about our little baby Grayson and all the cool things that were going to be happening. She said maybe the next lunch date we have will be with the little baby. Eeek! I can't believe we are getting so close! After lunch I went home to do my diaper covers. I spent a lot of time planning how to best use my fabric. I had already started a bit on a cover so I thought I had a head start. WRONG! I went through all of the steps on my tutorial. I thought it was looking good until I was just about finished.

I got the dumb thing sewn together and looked at it thinking it looked way too wide!! Something was also wrong with the inside. I felt like I could wear it. My snaps were covered which was preventing me from fastening them. I was getting extremely frustrated trying to figure out where I went wrong. Eric was trying to calm me down but it just wasn't helping. Finally before going to bed I tried to research where to buy a diaper cover in store so I could compare. There was only one store in the great state of AZ that I could find that had that had them physically in the store. I was so sad because I wouldn't be able to go until Tuesday due to the holiday. I went to bed in tears. Those dang hormones make me so incredibly mad that I just burst into tears. Half because I'm so pissed and half because I'm mad that I'm so pissed. It seems the only way to get rid of the fury is to cry. These hormones are an awful awful thing.

I decided I was not going to ruin my Monday holiday so I didn't work on my diapers. We had some friends over for a pool party/bbq. I have been dying to go swimming to see how it feels preggers. I kept joking to take bets on if I would float or sink. Much to my dismay, I did not float. I was nervous to swim around too much just in case I did something to bother the baby. Thank goodness my community has bathrooms at the swimming pool. I had to pee soooo bad while I was in the pool. It was ridiculous how many times I had to get out to use the bathroom. I'm not too sure what that was about. Over all it was a nice day away from the office!!

Tuesday I went to the diaper store after work, which is called Zoolikins. This place was absolutely heavenly. The owner of the shop gave me and a few other girls a complete tutorial on everything and anything we would even need to know about cloth diapers. She was marvelous. I wish I had found the store earlier because I would have saved myself a lot of frustration while searching online for the diapering method that best fit my needs. She had a million different types of diaper covers and accessories. She also helped me out with picking out detergent. She knew I was a sew from home mom so she gave me a lot of advice on what I would want in my diaper covers. She had a diaper that looked just like mine at home but I actually wanted to buy a diaper cover with leg gussets. These little things help from having blow outs. I actually found out that there are less blow outs with cloth diapers than disposables. Interesting! I walked away from the store feeling 100 times more educated. This lady made it seem way more sane that I could ever rationalize it. Apparently, cloth diapering mothers are referred to as granola mothers. I don't know if this is a way of just calling us hippies. I wish that every person who has ever had something negative to say to me about cloth diapers could have been with me. People really need to be educated on the way things are done now with cloth diapering. I feel like so many more people would be open to the idea. They even have these little biodegradable linners that look like wipes that can be put in a cloth diaper and flushed for those who are still hanging on to the whole disposable thing. There are lots of gadgets to help with cleaning and such. Its just such a wonderful thing. I'm sure all you cloth diaper haters are still thinking, "Just wait until you get into this Kayla, you are going to hate it". I really don't think I will. This is something that I am so passionate about that even if it was a pain, I would still continue it. I will not contribute to the landfill crisis going on these days. Especially when it means each diaper I throw away will sit there for 500 years. Not going to happen. I just wish people were more positive about my little adventure. I'm sorry to say it, but I'm getting sick of the negative comments!! Arrrrg!!! I will cloth diaper and smile through the whole thing knowing I made a very small difference.

So this is the cover I bought:

and these are the lovely leg gussets I want to add to my diapers:

By time I got home, I had figured out what I did wrong with the width and snaps. My diaper was wider than the one I bought so I had a reference of how small it should be. These diapers are adjustable with the snaps so that they can be worn as newborns through the toddler years. I was concerned with mine being to big for an infant. I took mine apart and re-sewed. I guessed around with the sizing on the leg gussets. The elastic I used was not working out very well which was frustrating me to no end. I ended up in the same position I was in on Sunday night. In tears. I had solved most of the problems but couldn't get the dang gusset thing down. I gave up for the night. Defeated. Ugh.

Wednesday, I had a doctors appointment bright and early. We had to make this one a quick one because Eric had a class to take at 9 for work. Dr. Guzman noticed that I wasn't quite as chipper as I usually am. I told him I've been having major hormone problems. Of course, he said this is normal but I don't get a free pass to be a brat either. hehe. Silly guy. I told him that Eric keeps asking why I'm so grumpy. Silly question to ask a preggers right? Guzman agreed. He started listing off a whole series of problems I'm probably having that just might be contributing to my foul moods. Poor Eric. I know he's sympathetic but men will never fully understand. I wish they could experience this whole thing too. No offense Eric :) Everything is seeming healthy. He checked to see that the baby was still head down, which he is. Next week, he might order an ultrasound just to verify. Cross our fingers he does. I want to see baby. I asked how soon after my due date he'll induce me if I go over. I though you could just pick a date but I guess I have to be a certain percent effaced, which basically is the ripening of my cervix. Booo. I wanted to pick a date. Well kinda. It is convenient for getting family here in time but I don't know if I could deal with the anxiety of knowing when baby was coming. I think I'd rather be surprised. I can't imagine how sleepless and anxious I would be the night before knowing I was being induced. I have a feeling I will go over my date and have to be induced. I guess we'll see right? I have weekly appointments from here on out. Hopefully we'll get a little more info each week. 

Eric also had his final gallstone procedure done on Wed. He had the remaining stones that were outside the gallbladder removed through an endoscopy. It was about a 45 min procedure. Man, he was so dang drugged up. It was pretty funny. He was also like a broken record with the question asking. Those nurses in recovery must be very patient people!! He is happy to be done, and so am I. Poor guy has lost so much weight during this whole process. He's going to blow away in the wind. Aren't men supposed to gain sympathy weight? Rude guy! 

Pre surgery:

 The very obvious post surgery haze:

While Eric was in surgery I ran over to Joann's because I had a breakthrough. I decided the elastic I was using was way too stiff for my diapers. I bought some fold over elastic, which saved my life. I took my whole diaper apart and sewed with the fold over elastic. Presto - the leg gussets work and so do the leg openings. The width looks pretty good too. Now that I have everything in order, I can start busting those things out. I was so relieved. I was so proud! Ahhhhh. It was amazing. This is my diaper cover. Its not a good picture and it looks all rumply, but it is very similar to the diaper cover I bought from Zoolikins. No more tears over the diapers!!!

 

I think that nesting is starting to kick in a little. I have been wanting to clean things a lot lately. I did some cleaning over the weekend but not nearly as much as I want to. I can't wait until I can clean, post pregnancy. I would love to scrub every surface in this house. Its a freaking mess! My room looks like a dang war zone. It is serving as my sewing room so it is a disaster in there. I'm going crazy. My tile is filthy. It doesn't matter how many times I mop, that dang grout still looks nasty. I despise tile with a fiery hatred. I've been dying to clean my doors and floor boards, which I usually do every month. I haven't been able to do that for a couple months because of the bending. The last time I did it, I nearly slept for a century. A lot of the monthly cleaning things I do get done when Eric is away from the house because of his allergies. The minute I start cleaning he starts to have an allergy attack. So there are only a few days a month that I can get my deep cleaning items done. The poor house hasn't been dusted for a while either, which is a total no-no when Eric is home. I just want to clean!!! I just want a clean house!! I just want my sewing projects to stop taking over the house!!

Something else I have noticed is that it would be really awesome to have a belly cut out at my work desk. That straight desk is really starting to get in the way of my belly. He he. Yes, Boss, I'd like the maternity desk. Pronto. Silly!

I'm still feeling pretty good other than the hormones. They are seriously out of hand. I get so angry at everything. Especially when I am hot, which is always. I burst into tears at my desk today. It was pathetic. I was feeling discouraged because a lot of people are declining for the shower Megan and Bre are throwing. I couldn't control it. Usually, I would just brush it off but the hormones are taking over here too. Eric kept saying well we've already gotten enough gifts, don't worry about it. Again, male brain does not process pregnancy hormones. I could cry at the death of a fly at this point. I'm so dang emotinal.  I'm also starting to have Braxton Hicks contractions that are actually noticeable now. My belly gets all hard and and I get a lot of pressure. I have only had two that were actually painful. They only lasted for 30 seconds but took my breath away. Very interesting. I was telling my cube partner that I feel lucky to only having small problems like hormones, not being able to sleep, and being hot. Thank goodness that is the extent of my pregnancy discomfort.

Now that week 35 is over, we are entering the 4 weeks away zone. This little baby will be here before we know it. I cannot wait. I'm scared but excited at the same time. I have been having some pretty awful and disturbing dreams about labor. I guess I'm really nervous about that. I just can't believe I'll be in that hospital bed with a little tiny baby in 4 weeks. Its going to be amazing. As a closing note, I got baby Grayson a little gift that should be a hint for him. This shirt tells him when I want him here. BEFORE THE 4TH OF JULY. That little guy better get here before then!! He has to wear this little shirt!

You hear that Grayson? Before the 4th!!